giving in to depression

I hit an all new phase today. I actually managed to sleep till 8pm. I totally forgot it was halloween which used to be my fav holiday, but i guess depression changes things. Actually looking back, as I went to sleep at 8 am i guess i didnt sleep too much. I am not going to india. The chance i took, traveling w/ someone i never met, but we spoke and emailed so much bah!, just totally fell apart. dont have the courage to go to india by myself so am doing another USA road trip. Would be nice to visit my friends all over the country and see yellowstone as i missed it the first time. Resee the badlands, white sands, mt. st. helens, austin. Visit Boston, NYC, Richmond, drive the blue ridge during fall!!!!!!!!! Think I might take my dog along for company. That way I am not alone - he is a great companion - never talks back :) Checking to see if i can find a nice flight + hotel package for amsterdam -thinking about a week. Here is to making the best out of things when people totally fuck you over. Will never have a pure internet friend again. Even the most honest and sweetest appearing can be total assholes. I portray myself as a player, but as much as it hurts to admit, I am a true romantic, looking for my soulmate. Thought I might have found him LOL.

Ok, I also dreamnt I was back in classes and had to write a 5 page paper and I wrote it by hand. About 2 hrs before it was due I realized it needed to be typed... any feelings on what this might mean?

like a blizzard in miami

When i lived in RVA i got to experience one really good snowstorm, perhaps maybe even a blizzard. What struck me about it most was how bright it was. With all the white EVERYWHERE, and the streetlights, I felt like i could read a book outside at 4am. I just went for a walk w/ Jackson, my lovely husky, and there were these thick low clouds that were so bright. No moon, but my walk has never been so bright. It just kept feeling like a blizzard in Miami Beach

A Fair(y) Use Tale

a nice tale about copywrite law as told by disney...in a way.

Quote & Gross thing that wandered into office

To give pleasure to a single heart by a single kind act is better than a thousand head-bowings in prayer. -Saadi, poet (c. 1200 AD)

Tis why religion blows.
-Mish 2004

Big Ugly Bug

Pretty much says it all. Busy day (as usual) and no time (as usual).

Ok - I have to write more now that I am here. Damn it, I forgot what I felt like writing about. Maybe it will come to me.....

Oh yes - Online Games have replaced my compulsion to read blogs. Now I play chess and backgammon in my not so spare time in hopes of improving the connections in my brain. Reading ALL the time can do a girl no good. Nor can playing online games!

Cheers!


"Saving one animal won't change the world, but it will change the world for that one animal."

moving...???

NYC has always been the last place I have wanted to live, but quite recently an old roommate and awesome friend said they wanted to move and they wanted me to be their roommate again. They could put up w/ all the fur that travels with me.

I want to seriously get back into the art scene and NYC seems like the perfect place. I complained about the lack of nature, but was reminded of all the parks that abound.

I cant believe it. I am actually thinking of moving to NYC. Said friend has always been a positive influence in my life. In addition, I seem to do better at life when my parents are far away. There it will be sink or swim, and I am so a swimmer. Here I am just floating on a life preserver. My style of living will significantly decrease, but I see much fun on the horizon. The move is scheduled for July, but i still have not made up my mind. But the more I think about it, the better a big change will be. Plus living where seasons actually exist makes me giddy. I also have an aunt, uncle, 2 cousins and their children there so my family will come to NYC for Xmas. But I do love coming home for Xmas and getting a great tan in the middle of winter. OK, the beginning.

picture blog - flowers - from DC

THESE ARE ALL FROM THE SMITHSONIAN...VARIOUS PARTS OF IT. USING THE MACRO

ORCHID

ORCHID LEAF

PLEASE TELL ME IF YOU KNOW

CACTUS FLOWER

COOL GREEN PLANT - WOULD LOVE MORE INFO

DC METRO, YEAH EVERYONE HAS THIS PIC I AM SURE

BROMILEAD

ORCHID!

ORCHID LEAF

ORCHIDS! (! INDICATES MY FAVS)




now YOUR turn - comment, tell me if they are awesome or if i should keep my day job :)

glittery shiny rocks!

Keep in mind I am 5'1" with tiny hands and fingers... Not normally into flashy diamonds but I consider this a piece of art. I used to ask my mom for it nearly every day - it was my regular conversation opener - "hey mom, can I have your ring?". Her father was a jeweler so jewelry is abundant in my family. This is the "cheapest" of her three expensive rings and she only has 2 fingers... Over Xmas she thought she lost it - ended up in her sister's gift bag. She said that the whole time it was lost she kept thinking that she never had a chance to give it to me. So a few weeks later, without my asking, she gave it to me. I had to turn it down a few times because I never really expected to get it. It was just an inside joke to tell her how beautiful I thought it was. Of course I never wear it, unless I am with my mother.

I am finding and finishing my drafts - hence the plethora (comparatively speaking) of posts.